the worst week. ever!
saya masuk ke kelompok Trimatra yang paling absurd dan paling ga asyik di antara semua anak sekelas. WHY ME?! okay that sounds so superior but this is my problem. I have problem making friends. there are some guys that I just can’t match up. I just can’t talk to them and hang around. jujur, saya iri banget sama temen2 yang bisa ngobrol sama siapa aja and make things look fun. me? cannot do that! ada beberapa orang yang saya bener2 ga bisa mingle dg baik. and somehow in my assignment team, all those people just gather round and make things miserable for me! astaghfirullah.
waktu kita lagi bikin tugas, they like, talking to each other, and laugh together, and I was like, WHAT THE F ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?! saya bener2 ga ngerti mereka ngomong apa, and I just sat there like an idiot trying so hard to understand what they were talking about and why were they laughing, but I just CAN’T! seriously! call me exclusive call me arrogant whatever. tapi serius, I try to mingle. I really do. but I just can’t! oh my God..
I’m so pissed off and I’m so tired of making things work for the team. mereka ga salah sih. mereka ga nyakitin saya dan ga ngehina2 saya. yah, mungkin mereka ngomongin saya di belakang but it’s normal considering how many times I bailed on the meetings. I don’t know what’s wrong with them, but I just can’t do this. astaga.
this is the first time I actually want a deadline to be fast-forwarded.
